JUZ AS SAD AS TEARS.

16 FEBRUARY 2011

today

my lovely sweet teacher died..

she taught me lots and lots of things when i was in form 3.....

that is 2 years ago..

juz thinking about it makes me wanna cry...

ughhhhhhhhhhhhh

i'm so sad..

n i cried like a baby when some1 told d news...

but not like a whiny small annoying baby...

i cried like a quiet peaceful baby..

yeah..

like a shy sweet baby...

anyway, i love my teacher

she is so sweet and caring

i remember, once in 2010, she was in KOOP and i was buying something

and i paid to her

she said that, "last year, u are 1 of my student rite??"

n i was like " yeahh.u remember me??" (touching)

n she said "of course! i know my students"

yeah.dat was it but it was so touching that i still remember it till now

n i'll always remember that moment...

and the day before yesterday, i saw her.....

she was walking slowly with her daughters

and there was a small drain

she walked really slowly across the drain

and my heart was like

"..............................."

yeah.i felt sorry for her....

my heart did want to say hi to her but i didn't know why,

I DID NOT DO WAT I WANTED TOO

and today, i felt the biggest regret for not doing that

when i think about it, my heart felt some anger

that anger is towards me

and i started to be in my own world

all sad and down

yeah. i am a negative person...

always sad and down

1 of my friends said that i am all JIWANG this year

HORMONES playing a big role controlling my feelings

SORI LA...

anyway, i wont be all jiwang anymore since its bothering my friends

i'll change!

all i wanted to say is,

cikgu, semoga ckgu dirhmati Allah,

smoga segala ilmu yang ckgu bagi dirahmati Allah,

dan semoga segala yang cikgu ajar digunakan untuk kebaikan.