JUZ AS SAD AS TEARS.

16 FEBRUARY 2011

today

my lovely sweet teacher died..

she taught me lots and lots of things when i was in form 3.....

that is 2 years ago..

juz thinking about it makes me wanna cry...

ughhhhhhhhhhhhh

i'm so sad..

n i cried like a baby when some1 told d news...

but not like a whiny small annoying baby...

i cried like a quiet peaceful baby..

yeah..

like a shy sweet baby...

anyway, i love my teacher

she is so sweet and caring

i remember, once in 2010, she was in KOOP and i was buying something

and i paid to her

she said that, "last year, u are 1 of my student rite??"

n i was like " yeahh.u remember me??" (touching)

n she said "of course! i know my students"

yeah.dat was it but it was so touching that i still remember it till now

n i'll always remember that moment...

and the day before yesterday, i saw her.....

she was walking slowly with her daughters

and there was a small drain

she walked really slowly across the drain

and my heart was like

"..............................."

yeah.i felt sorry for her....

my heart did want to say hi to her but i didn't know why,

I DID NOT DO WAT I WANTED TOO

and today, i felt the biggest regret for not doing that

when i think about it, my heart felt some anger

that anger is towards me

and i started to be in my own world

all sad and down

yeah. i am a negative person...

always sad and down

1 of my friends said that i am all JIWANG this year

HORMONES playing a big role controlling my feelings

SORI LA...

anyway, i wont be all jiwang anymore since its bothering my friends

i'll change!

all i wanted to say is,

cikgu, semoga ckgu dirhmati Allah,

smoga segala ilmu yang ckgu bagi dirahmati Allah,

dan semoga segala yang cikgu ajar digunakan untuk kebaikan.

POSTING SOMETHING!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=x1PE_EMFWD4

neo gateun saram tto eopso ~ ...... eodiso channie~ yeahh n so on... -NO OTHER BY SUJU :)

i love this song ;) in fact, i'm listening to it now! oh oh~!

ok. proceed.. i'm actually bored right now.. sometimes, i wonder, why my life's is always boring. not always to be exact but, its like ALWAYS!

when i open the internet, there's not much thing to do . when watching tv, there's not much story to watch. n when doing nothing, there's nothing to do since i'm doing NOTHING!

but, when i'm not doing anything, i'll think of something n i'll use my brain.. so, doing nothing is actually not bad cuz i'll do something when i'm not doing anything.. confusing much? proceed~

wat is boring?? according to "my" dictionary, boring is tired of this life. our heart will felt empty cuz there's nothing to do.. n eventually, we will fell asleep cuz of the boringness!

ahhh! my brains hurt! maybe it is becuz i think to much?? or not..maybe a brain tumor? or a migrain u think? i dunno~

my headache is making my stomach hurts! but i dun think it is related :? damn u stomachache!

HOPING THAT EVERYTHING WILL BE OK~

i'm gonna be ok~! gonna be ok!

gonna be ok~! gonna be ok~!

baby without u~! yeah!

~~without u from 2pm!

yes.. hoping that evrything's gonna be ok tomorrow at school by myself without my mate!

yes! i'll be alone at school tomorrow cuz all of them have to go to some consumer's forum...well, not all of them to be exact but to me, all of them will gone for the whole day!

Dayah will participate in that forum (?) i think ...i don't know in detail but she will participate in something! yeah! DAYAH! do ur best!!

as to my other mate, gud luck too~ (i think??)

tomorrow will be a lonely day ~ :( thats y i will read THE FOTRESS OF BONES again at school tomorrow.. i really love that book! thank u AINAA for lending me such a wonderful book!

by the way, i miss her so much hahaha since she's gone for 3 days n she won't be coming to school for a week! AINAA, i miss punching u! hohoho n_n

i'll end my post with something cheesy~

.............................................

i really have no idea rright now... maybe some other times~

until then, AHOY MATE!!